When you can’t hear God
Lately I have felt a disconnect with God. As my troubles were growing, I couldn’t feel Him nor could I hear Him. I prayed, read scripture, and then worried. Over and over I would fall into this routine. I didn’t understand because I felt as if I was doing all the right things. Why could I not feel my Father’s presence? I would catch my thought process becoming more fearful than godly.
What if, when will this happen, how much longer do I have to wait?
This world can be overwhelming, but the two things God was about to reveal to me was Huge. First, He asked the simple yet complex question, do you trust me with everything?
Not with a little this and a little that, but with EVERYTHING. My initial thought was, yes of course I do. Then I started to deeply think about the simple question and my answer shifted to no, yes, maybe, I don’t know.
The more I dove into the question, God revealed the areas in my life that He was absent. He revealed areas that needed pruning and areas that I needed to make Him my focal point.
You see, fear can be one of my worst enemies. Fear of failure and fear of the unknown can really mess with my head; but let me ask you this, if you knew every detail of your life and knew every outcome to every detail then why would you need God?
God wants us to want a relationship with Him. He wants us to spend every breath, thought, and action glorifying Him. He in fact gives us more than what we can handle because we are to depend on Him and Him alone.
We will start to see major issues in our lives when we try to become kings and (for all those boys out there) queens of our own world.
Nothing we do is possible without God. Every talent we have is a gift from our Heavenly Father and He is the only one who knows exactly how to use those talents. He nurtures our skills and places us in His sovereign will. He leaves obedience up to us. God gives His children free will. It is up to us to seek Him and make Him the King that He already is.
The second truth God sent my way was through various messengers. He said, draw near to me. This is so crucial in everyone’s spiritual journey. If we don’t take time to acknowledge God through all situations then pride can get in the way.
It was clear to me that God was saying the time I spent worrying about every detail I should have used that time to grow closer to Him. Yes, I was reading the Bible and praying, but I wasn’t being still and listening to what my Father had to say. I was trying to put a time limit on God when he was wanting me to stop and truly wait.
God doesn’t belong in a box. He is supernatural and will always get His way. Whether you have to learn the hard way or not, God is the King of your world and my world.
God was there for me even when I couldn’t feel him, but what He was trying to get me to learn is to sit still and listen to His word. Don’t just do a devotion because you’re in a routine or because it’s the right thing to do, but instead do it because you want to grow intimate with Him.
I know my answers are coming soon. I have to trust Him with everything, draw near, and remember He is the King of this world!
Thank you Jesus for caring so much about me that you saw my troubles and revealed your truth through your word. You are a Good, Good Father.
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